Repeating the Past

You know how they say "If you always do what you've always done you always get what you you've already got." I feel like that is my motto for last week.

So the goal was to not weigh in for three weeks and instead focus on my food. I tracked my food for 2 days and then my food went haywire. I ate out like...I think 6 times this week. Which is way excessive for me. I don't even have the money. I like new it was stupid and still would eat out. And then when I eat bad whether it is out or at home I can never get myself to write down anything. So I was good actually I was great the first couple days of the week and then down the tubes. I almost wanted to weigh in to show myself how much weight I gained because I was an idiot but I just figure I should just get back on the wagon, do what I know I need to do and wait to weigh in.

I just hate watching my calories. It is so...restrictive. Watching everything and doing good and then beating myself up over something stupid. Like my calories are good but I don't get enough protein. Or whatever. So no more tracking. I need to just listen to my body. Feed it what it needs when it needs it. If I fill my fridge with healthy food then that is what I will be eating so nit picking each thing is silly. It is like when I was like 19 or 20 I went to the dr and they said I had high blood pressure. The guy wanted to put me on meds for it and I was like no. So I had to come back in a month to show improvement. So I ate healthier and exercised and when i went in it was down. The dr asks what I eat for lunch and I say sandwhich with meat and cheese, chips, and water. And goes "you should really cut out the chips." That was it. Not good job or anything positive just told me what I was still doing wrong. It was stupid though because before that I was going out to eat every day eating hamburgers and fries. It felt like there was no point because my good choices are still just not good enough.

Anyways. ;) So no weigh in this weekend. My pants are still feeling fine. I pushed myself at the gym at the begining of the week. I went to a yoga class and another Zumba class at my gym and I think on Tue with the yoga class and doing my strength I was there almost 2 1/2 hrs. On Wed I did a Body Pump class that my friend was teaching. It was really tough and I was feeling the it in my back and shoulders the rest of the day. But I haven't been back since. So 4 days without the gym. :( Not good I know. I need to go tonight. They close at 9pm and I think I am just going to do some cardio today to get myself started again. This week I go back to work. I am going to watch teacher kids so I will actually work a full 40 hours. So I don't know how I am going to do it. I hate going at peak time and I will be getting off work right at 4 or 4:30. So that puts me at peak but I don't know if I go home I will make it back out the door to go to the gym later. So we will see. I need to get back in there and keep up with my strength and cardio training. Plus I really do want to see if I can run a 5K by Oct for the Susan G Koman Race. I need to be a little more routine with that training schedule too. Oh, but I have stopped using my inhaler. I bring it along in case I have a problem but so far none which is great because it means that my lungs are healthier then they were two months ago before I started going to the gym. So yea to that!