Ok so yesterday I realized I was in a tail spin. I ate breakfast at denny's, had carmel frappachino for lunch, mcdonalds for dinner, and then stopped at a gas station and got ice cream for desert. I was anxious all day from all this boot camp, hcg, fasting stress. Last night I was up till midnight watching a movie and then couldn't sleep because I was so stressed out. So last night I decided I am not doing boot camp anymore. I am not getting any benefits from it, instead I am actually gaining weight and spinning into a cycle of depression so no more. I let the boot camp girl know this morning I won't be back. I had registered for the second boot camp but I am going to see if I can unregister and maybe gift it to someone. If not then it was only $30 and my sanity is worth more than that.
This weekend I am spending some one-on-one time with nephews. One loves to cook and the other loves to shop. So food will be involved with both. I do have a four day weekend next weekend so the current plan is to fast for four days next weekend. I plan to do a "regular fast" no food but lots of water. I am hoping that during this time I will find some clarity about the HCG thing because I am to back and forth, split in the middle right now about it.
This morning when I woke up I felt like a weight was off my shoulders. I am still not sure about these shoes because they kind of remind me all day I am trying to loose weight but I am used to them now so I am going to see if I can handle them. Well off to work now.
I'm not trying to be mean or anything, but you know you are gaining weight from what you are eating, not from exercising, right? There is a saying that you can "outeat your exercise" and it seems like that might be your problem; not the boot camp itself. That said, I also think you were doing too much exercise and no wonder you were tired, stressed and worn out! Your poor body needed a break...you don't have to practically kill yourself with a workout to gain the benefits from exercise. I hope you can find something simple that will work for you - shoot, even walking 45 minutes a day would be great!
ReplyDeleteGood luck Angela - I'm rooting for you!