Stuffed

I, for as long as I can remember, have overeaten. Eaten continuously until I am stuffed and then past that. I don't know when it changed but I don't really do that anymore. Don't get me wrong I definitely overeat. I go over my calories and eat to much but I do not eat to the extent that my stomach is in pain. For my birthday I went with my dad to a Chinese buffet. I was good about eating only a little bit of different things. If I didn't like something I didn't continue eating it. I was pretty good about stopping when I was getting full and just grabbed a couple small desert items when I saw crab legs.

I have recently watched the first eight seasons of Deadliest Catch. Since I started watching I wanted to try actual crab legs. I had not had the chance until this moment. So I put down my dessert plate and grabbed two crab legs. I needed help from dad on how to get to the meat of the legs. Honestly it was a little weird at first to eat it. Knowing that I had just seen many live crabs and it is different since it the actual leg. This of course was just a momentary lapse and I enjoyed my crab. I don't think this will become a regular thing as I prefer someone else to do the hard work of getting the crab out of the legs for me.

All this to say that I ate way to much. My stomach felt really full and it was very uncomfortable. We had to stop at Home Depot quickly and felt so uncomfortable walking around so full. Tonight I went out to Red Lobster. A meal by myself for my birthday, a time of reflection and thought. The last time I went I way overate. It has been many months, I don't remember when, and I regretted it the moment I did it. Today I didn't do that. I ate till I was full and I stopped. There were still shrimp and lobster on my plate but I did not finish it just finish it. It wasn't until after the waiter took my plate that I had connected this. That I had no interest in overeating to the point of pain. I think this is a huge accomplishment.