About Me

Hi, my name is Angela and welcome to my blog. This is a place where I write about my life in an honest and open way.

I am 36 years old, single, and a Christian. God gave me a heart to work with children and so I spend my day teaching kindergarten. It is my fourth year teaching and although it is hard I love it. I currently go to a college for my BA in Elementary Education which keeps me busy. Between work and school there is not much time left but I enjoy serving and helping others, watching netflix, or reading a good book.


Tuesday, April 17, 2018

Stress, Fear and a Realization

I don't know what set it off but a little over a week ago my nutrition went hay wire. Every single day I went out to eat for about ten days. My calories were not always ridiculously over but sometimes it was. I stopped hitting my step goals during this time as well. Here is what that looks like digitally. 

This first one shows how I went over on four of the days. The trick with this is that when my steps add in it changes how many calories I really ate. Though Friday I really didn't much at all which is also not good either. 


Really I guess I do know what set my over eating off. It was stress from my life that included a disappointment with my college classes as well as stress about my living situation. In addition my weight loss threw me off as well. I know that sounds crazy but it is true. I started this at 301 lbs. I had for years stayed around 260 so this 40 lb gain was connected to some stress of changing my job a few months ago. I hit the number 294 on the scale but what effected me was my pants falling down. Lets expand on that.

At size 28 or 30, which I have been for at least a decade, you can not buy cheap pants. It really is not possible because regular stores do not sell them. I have to go to Torrid or Lane Bryant to buy clothes where pants are priced at $70! I buy them on sale to save money but they are still at least $40 a pair. I also found out that Old Navy does sell plus size online at fairly good deals. They are cheaper then Torrid and Lane Bryant but the plus sizes are not as cheap as the "regular" size clothes. Even when they have the $5 sales are never actually $5 for plus size, it is frustrating. So the thought of loosing weight means buying new clothes which is an expensive endeavor. Two days ago I realized how I was wrong.

I am currently a size 28. My pants that are size 30 are loose and need a belt. I realized that Walmart sells size 26 and Target sells 24 so really if I loose weight it is not as expensive as I thought it would be. Yesterday i went to Walmart and picked up a pair of pants in a size 26 for $16! What $16 for pants! I know they won't last as long as my $70 pants but still that is a huge difference. Then I realized, very excitedly, that if I get to a size 24/26 I can buy pajamas at a store. I want to wear fun pajamas that don't actually come in plus sizes as if we some how wouldn't want to wear any. I am so excited about pajamas! Do you know how ridiculous it is that Target and Walmart sells 4X shirts, underwear, non-jean pants but no pajamas. I have been wearing work out clothes to bed for years because it is all I can buy. So crazy!! Okay enough about pajamas. 😃

So this week I am back to making better choices. Today I did a 21 Day Fix - Cardio Fix video. Tomorrow morning I will, hopefully, wake up in time to go for a morning hike. I really want to get out and hike again. It has been a long time since I have had a chance. In fact I used to think "I would totally hike more if I had time in the morning." At the time I worked at 7:30am but now I do not work until 10am. I really want to take advantage while the weather is still nice in the a.m. and before I start teaching again. 

This week my focus is getting back on track with calories and portion control. I am also adding in at least three workouts, more then just my step goal of 7K a day. Next week I want to start focusing on adding more fruits and vegetables to my daily eating because they are severely lacking right now. 

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