I feel every week that I "fail" like I need to make a new plan on how not to "fail." I want those two months back where I was eating well and exercising daily and I had extra energy and felt happier. But I lost it and I can't seem to find it again. I am currently reading a book called "703." It is about a woman who at one point got up to 703 lbs and that she has since lost over 500 lbs. I am only a third of the way through the book which started when she was a child. I see how she in her life has gone up and down and it scares me to death that I would ever get to be that high, or really anywhere near it. How does someone go so far? Though I suppose some people would say the same about me and my high of 318 lbs. I have mentioned it before that I have never actually yo-yo'd. I would gain or maintain but not go up and down in size. I fear that this weight loss will be just that, a yo-yo that will go back up. I do not want that. I do not want to be 300 lbs again. In fact I really want to be less than 250 lbs now. I am tired of seeing 260+ lbs on the scale. I am done with it.
So here it is another week and here I am trying to formulate a new plan on how to get past this plateau. For over a month I have had a nagging feeling that maybe I need to go to a gym. I know that it is important to get both cardio and strength training. When I am at home I tend to just do the cardio. I have all of my Biggest Loser video's that would provide the strength training I need but they are just so hard. I am kind of broke right now so I look at the gym options and then decide no. I like 24 hour fitness but it is more expensive than Pure Fitness. But I want to try group classes and the Pure Fitness nearest me doesn't have any classes. And then I started thinking about Curves. Curves is actually more expensive than 24 hour fitness and it requires a membership which big gyms now don't require, plus they have a membership fee which again big gym's don't have or if they do they are a fraction of the price. The Curves has limited hours which means I won't be able to go on Sat or Sun. They also only do this curcuit training which means I would have to do my cardio at home. It is cool because I won't have to change any weights because their strength training is all resistance. But then I am paying more money for less availability and only half of my workout. And yet I am still considering it. I worry that I am thinking it is a quick fix. You know like one of those infomercials, "Buy now and your life will be wonderful!" but what if I get myself into a contract that I can't afford with early cancellation fees. I see 1 free week offers all over the internet so maybe I will go in and try it, see if it is something I will want to go back and do. For now though I think I need to just get my butt off the couch and start doing the exercises that are available to me. In reality I shouldn't need a gym because I have already purchased all that I need to succeed, hence my previous successes.
Food. Last week I didn't go to bountiful basket but this week I did. The first week I had ordered organic and I noticed that you "of course" get a lot more stuff in the non-organic. So this time I tried non-organic. The bounty was plentiful for only $15 it was a great deal. The problem is me. Six ears of corn are great, if I just knew how to cook them and wanted to eat them all week long. I have these mango's that I had to look up online how to even cut and they smell like aloe to me so it is just weird to eat. Oh yeah and cauliflower, I do not eat cauliflower and yet now there is some in my fridge. The apples, banana's, bell peppers (though what do you do with 6 bell peppers,) the fresh spinach it is all great. I am just not a cook and so I think for the majority of people this is great because you can create new exciting recipes every week, and you definitely get a variety of stuff. But for me I just like the same stuff and this venturing into new food is not working. My brother may decide to continue getting it, I have been splitting with him and his wife. But he actually goes to a local farmers market where he can also get fresh local fruits and veg but gets to choose what he wants. Maybe next week I will try that out, it would be a good field trip with my nephews.