So I weighed myself saturday and like I thought I gained weight. I gained 3.5 lbs taking me to 257 lbs. My waist remains at 49". I didn't stress about it at because I knew that I hadn't been eating well and had eaten a lot salt so no biggie. I was writing it down on my 90 day plan calendar and noticed that I have 3 weeks left in this set of 90 days. I started out at 255 lbs and have stayed right around their the entire time. I still really want to get below 250 by the end of the 90 days.
I have decided to do two things different. First, I am not weighing in until day 90 which is on August 28th. I think this will help so I am not so stressed about the number on sat night. Plus the fluctuations I think are messing with my head. I mean I got down to 254 and then stress out again and gain again. I think I am scared of getting under 250. But maybe if I just focus on being healthy instead of a number then I will find myself on the other side of the imaginary wall I have built.
Second, I need to focus more on being healthy. This week I read an interview by Kelly Rippa that said her Dr sister once told her that when she exercises she should be focusing on the inside not the outside. That every time she steps into a gym it is to make her heart healthy and the number on the scale will just naturally follow. And I think that is a great mind set and I am going to try to tell myself that when I go in the gym because often times I am thinking all about the calories I am burning. Which is important but as my aunt pointed out to me when I ran into her today that today was my mother's birthday, which I didn't even remember because its been 8 years since she died of a heart attack. That really that is what I really want to prevent. I don't want a heart attack before age 50 so much more than I want to fit into a size 16.
I think I mentioned before I have this book called "FitBook." It is very detailed in what you put down, all your food and exercises each day. So my challenge for myself is to write everything down for the next 3 weeks. I want to see exactly how many calories am I eating, how much fat and protein. Am I getting any fruits and veggies in? I am also going to track my exercise so I can see exactly how often I increase weights and make sure I am being consistent with my gym workouts. I think the biggest challenge of this is my work. This week I have off again, week 2 I work 40 hours 8-5, and then week 3 I go back to regular school schedule of 11:30- 6:30. So with my schedule so random I think it will be easy to make excuses not to write in it but also that it is the perfect time to write it all down to keep me on track even when life is a little crazy.
Speaking of challenges. Last week's challenge was to go to at least one but hopefully two classes at my gym. I only ended up at one and that was because I was meeting a friend. I went to Zumba class on Thursday morning. It was weird and frustrating because I couldn't tell what I was supposed to be doing and the teacher kept stopping and being weird. I need to try it with someone else before I give a final judgement on Zumba. I tried to make it to a 9:30 am cycle class on Friday but I slept in too late and so I got their exactly at 9:30 and the class was already full. I do need to start learning to wake up earlier so I am going to try to make it to a couple classes this week as well. But my biggest challenge to me is write everything down.
In reference to my last post. I did not work out sat or sun. I do plan to go back again tomorrow. The only book on tape I have is the bible so I pulled that out and loaded Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John onto my ipod. I figured that would get me through the week and I think I may do Psalms and Proverbs next. This is so that I am not reading, in case that was causing my dizziness. I also plan to focus a little more on breathing and if at any point start feeling dizzy to stop my ipod and focus directly on breathing during the exercise. I am hoping this should help take care of things. The other thought I had concerning this is I was diagnosed with "exercise induced asthma" so I use an inhaler before exercising every time. Well I have been trying to take myself off from it unless for an emergency so the same two times I got dizzy I hadn't pre-used my inhaler. I didn't directly link it before because I use the inhaler when I feel my chest tighten and hard to breath. But if I am dizzy because not enough air then maybe it is part of the problem. In which case I need to just work through it because you aren't actually supposed to use an "emergency inhaler" daily. So I don't know we will see. Who knows maybe I just need more water, I probably drink less now that I'm not working because I don't think about it as much.
I still plan to post each week even if I don't have a number so I will let you know how it is going soon.