About Me

Hi, my name is Angela and welcome to my blog. This is a place where I write about my life in an honest and open way.

I am 36 years old, single, and a Christian. God gave me a heart to work with children and so I spend my day teaching kindergarten. It is my fourth year teaching and although it is hard I love it. I currently go to a college for my BA in Elementary Education which keeps me busy. Between work and school there is not much time left but I enjoy serving and helping others, watching netflix, or reading a good book.

Friday, January 11, 2013

This is why...

This is why I always give up. This is why I always fail. I have spent 10 days fighting cravings. 10 days exercising nearly everyday. Making sure to always take extra steps here and there. I have been staying close to my calorie goal with my average being 500 under the last couple weeks. (The goal calories putting me at losing 2 lbs a week.) Tonight I stepped on the scale, thinking it had been a while it was time to check and what does the scale say? 292! In 10 days I have not gained or lost anything! Why am I pushing myself so hard. Why am I passing up the food that I want when it apparently doesn't even matter! Ahhhhhhh!!!!

I know what you want to say. "Muscle weighs more then fat." "You have to give it time." NO! How is it that my body never loses weight the first month that I exercise! How is this possible? This is not the first time I have said this on this blog. It is so annoying! Why go through so much pain so much talking myself away from food and away from the drive threw when it doesn't make a difference? I know, "what about my clothes? I bet they are feeling looser." NO! In fact all week my pants have been tight it has been awful and today I didn't think I would button them. So please tell me how my waist is growing larger now that I am eating less and exercising more!

I don't understand.


  1. I am new to your blog and so I may be preaching to the choir but the number on the scale isn't because muscle weighs more than fat. That is a silly Myth. However 5 lbs of fat and 5 lbs of muscle are very different in size. I honestly don't know why you haven't lost unless you are subconsciously sabotaging yourself but I can answer one question. Why are you working so hard? Not for the number on the scale, I can tell you that. You are working hard because it is what is good for you. Instant gratification and lack of self control is for people who don't care about their life. You are working hard because you care, or at least I hope you do. Your health is important. VERY IMPORTANT. I am just now having that pounded into my own head. I am sorry if this comment sounds crass or tough but it is true. Work hard for health. Enjoy what you do and use yummy food as a treat not medication. I hope to read a happy productive post from you soon. ;)

    Kristen aka Misc Mom

  2. PS you should add a follower button. I would love to follow your journey :)

  3. Misc Mom, Thank you for the encouraging comments. You are of course right I do want to be healthy but sometimes the number on the scale gets in the way. I did added in the option to follow my blog in the right hand column. I can't promise my posts will always be productive but they will be honest.