I am so tired of this. I do not want to do it anymore. I was already craving all kinds of food. Just wanting to eat real food when my roommates, my brother and sil, started cooking dinner. It was quite a struggle but I decided not to actually quit but instead have a salad. This is totally ok you can have raw veg and fruits no problem. So I went to fresh and easy and got some supplies and made a salad. I chose a dressing and it turned out not so good. I still ate the salad but it could have been better.
So now I am sitting down eating but I really don't want to be, a KR red. I will only have two smoothies today because I had the salad as well. I really want to quit. I tell myself it is because I am feeling so much better. Which is true and my head feels much clearer. But I want to stick it out. Now I am going to have two extra one orange and one blue if anyone wants try for a day I would share. I don't know how much benefit for one day you would get but then you could at least try them. Otherwise I will use them myself eventually. If I did this again it would only be for 3 days and not six. Six seems like it is too many.
For now I am going to make a shopping list of things to start eating wednesday when I start eating vegan. I want to add new foods in and some foods I am used to.
About Me
Hi, my name is Angela and welcome to my blog. This is a place where I write about my life in an honest and open way.
I am 36 years old, single, and a Christian. God gave me a heart to work with children and so I spend my day teaching kindergarten. It is my fourth year teaching and although it is hard I love it. I currently go to a college for my BA in Elementary Education which keeps me busy. Between work and school there is not much time left but I enjoy serving and helping others, watching netflix, or reading a good book.
Monday, September 5, 2011
Day 5 of Kaeng Raeng Detox
I didn't post yesterday but I will try not to make this too long.
On Day 3, saturday evening, I had tried to make my KR blue taste better by mixing it with blueberries, banana, and soy milk. But I was running late to babysit and so I put in way to much milk. So then when I tried to drink it, it tasted better but it was very think more like a milk shake and less like a drink. It was very hard to get through just cause it was so thick. And then I realized that of course it has a million calories in it because of all of the milk. So I won't do that again.
Day 4 went ok. I had to be to church at 8 am so I brought my morning KR orange with me and drank half on the way and the other half at 9:30 am. I went home and had KR red around 1 pm it was great like normal mixing it with strawberries and orange juice. But then I started getting really hungry around 4pm which was way to early. I managed to hold off till 5:30 to make the KR blue. It was better because I only did 1 cup milk and added 1/2 cup POM, 1 banana, and lots of ice. So it was thinner, it is still not my favorite but it was better now. I drank it so fast, I was so hungry. Really the problem was I was getting cranky because I just wanted to eat I didn't want to make a stupid smoothie. So I don't know why I was so thrown off maybe it was waking up so early. After drinking the KR blue I was fine. I did go out and hang out with my friend all evening so that was kind of a distraction.
An interesting thing I realized about myself, ok I kind of new it already, is my late night snacking. When I go out somewhere babysitting, to a friends, whatever 9 times out of 10 I stop and get something to eat on the way home. After babysitting it is usually ice cream or donuts from convenience stores and after hanging out with friends fast food places.So the last two nights I had to deal with this. After babysitting it wasn't too hard because it is all freeway home. But after coming friends house I take different freeways and end up passing by 2 Mcdonald's, Taco Bell, and a Jack N the Box plus a McDonald's bill board that made me want it even more. I did make it home without stopping and I was so proud of myself. I began to wonder if maybe being in those social situations, that can be stressful for me, even with my best friend, I use eating out as a reward. A good job, you did so well, a way to allow those soothing rush of endorphins or whatever into my body to help me relax.
I didn't get to bed till late, like midnight maybe 12:30. Last night I felt like maybe I didn't need to detox anymore. I am feeling good, my skin is clearing up, it is not hard, besides blue, to drink them. My insides have been calming down a bit and I have been doing great with cravings both from my cabinets and from outside sources. In fact I even felt that way this morning. Why not just keep the 2 days worth and do in a month or something. I decided not to, it is just two more days. But honestly even now I feel like it did what it needed to and I am good now to move on to the next step.
This morning I didn't wake up until 11 am. Still unsure of what I was going to do I drank 24 oz of water before eating anything. I then, with the prod from my sister in law I went and mixed my first drink, KR blue. I wonder if that was part of my hesitance knowing I was drinking that one first. Though on the flip side I actually forgot to but a KR orange in one day or maybe it was extra but I think I forgot it and so tomorrow if I really don't want to I can just have two KR orange and one KR red. I know that the blueberries provide an amazing antioxidant and so I should really still do all three but it is so gross. I don't know I will decide tomorrow. I have decided that tomorrow instead of trying to mix while at work, I have a two hour break M-Th so I will just come home and blend. I usually don't come home because it is a 15 min drive each way and the cost of gas just isn't worth it but I think this time it is for a drink that will taste great.
Because I ate so late I have no idea when I will be hungry again. Hopefully not too late. I don't want to drink the third one too close to sleeping. I will let you know tomorrow.
On Day 3, saturday evening, I had tried to make my KR blue taste better by mixing it with blueberries, banana, and soy milk. But I was running late to babysit and so I put in way to much milk. So then when I tried to drink it, it tasted better but it was very think more like a milk shake and less like a drink. It was very hard to get through just cause it was so thick. And then I realized that of course it has a million calories in it because of all of the milk. So I won't do that again.
Day 4 went ok. I had to be to church at 8 am so I brought my morning KR orange with me and drank half on the way and the other half at 9:30 am. I went home and had KR red around 1 pm it was great like normal mixing it with strawberries and orange juice. But then I started getting really hungry around 4pm which was way to early. I managed to hold off till 5:30 to make the KR blue. It was better because I only did 1 cup milk and added 1/2 cup POM, 1 banana, and lots of ice. So it was thinner, it is still not my favorite but it was better now. I drank it so fast, I was so hungry. Really the problem was I was getting cranky because I just wanted to eat I didn't want to make a stupid smoothie. So I don't know why I was so thrown off maybe it was waking up so early. After drinking the KR blue I was fine. I did go out and hang out with my friend all evening so that was kind of a distraction.
An interesting thing I realized about myself, ok I kind of new it already, is my late night snacking. When I go out somewhere babysitting, to a friends, whatever 9 times out of 10 I stop and get something to eat on the way home. After babysitting it is usually ice cream or donuts from convenience stores and after hanging out with friends fast food places.So the last two nights I had to deal with this. After babysitting it wasn't too hard because it is all freeway home. But after coming friends house I take different freeways and end up passing by 2 Mcdonald's, Taco Bell, and a Jack N the Box plus a McDonald's bill board that made me want it even more. I did make it home without stopping and I was so proud of myself. I began to wonder if maybe being in those social situations, that can be stressful for me, even with my best friend, I use eating out as a reward. A good job, you did so well, a way to allow those soothing rush of endorphins or whatever into my body to help me relax.
I didn't get to bed till late, like midnight maybe 12:30. Last night I felt like maybe I didn't need to detox anymore. I am feeling good, my skin is clearing up, it is not hard, besides blue, to drink them. My insides have been calming down a bit and I have been doing great with cravings both from my cabinets and from outside sources. In fact I even felt that way this morning. Why not just keep the 2 days worth and do in a month or something. I decided not to, it is just two more days. But honestly even now I feel like it did what it needed to and I am good now to move on to the next step.
This morning I didn't wake up until 11 am. Still unsure of what I was going to do I drank 24 oz of water before eating anything. I then, with the prod from my sister in law I went and mixed my first drink, KR blue. I wonder if that was part of my hesitance knowing I was drinking that one first. Though on the flip side I actually forgot to but a KR orange in one day or maybe it was extra but I think I forgot it and so tomorrow if I really don't want to I can just have two KR orange and one KR red. I know that the blueberries provide an amazing antioxidant and so I should really still do all three but it is so gross. I don't know I will decide tomorrow. I have decided that tomorrow instead of trying to mix while at work, I have a two hour break M-Th so I will just come home and blend. I usually don't come home because it is a 15 min drive each way and the cost of gas just isn't worth it but I think this time it is for a drink that will taste great.
Because I ate so late I have no idea when I will be hungry again. Hopefully not too late. I don't want to drink the third one too close to sleeping. I will let you know tomorrow.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Day 3 - Mid Day Post
Last night after work I felt awful! I got home and I just felt completely lethargic. I made my dinner drink and tried to drink it but I just felt so tired i just laid down for at least half hour without moving. Over the next two hours I continued to feel lethargic and then started feeling cramps. I checked the Kaeng Raeng web site and they say if you feel lethargic then you are not drinking enough water so I started downing lots of water. After several hours of just laying on the couch I did start to feel somewhat better and managed to finish my dinner drink. I did sleep nearly 10 hours but I was very restless for the first half of the night.
Last night before bed I did some reading. Feeling so bad I was very tempted to quit and so tried to find some reviews. I found several others who had done Kaeng Raeng, some had done the 3 day and others the 6 day. None complained of side effects, in fact most specifically said they had no side effects. Though all the reviews I found were people who were already at least vegetarian but several were vegan. I on the other hand have eaten all kinds of junk. In fact the last week of August I ate a few things to kind of say good bye to them. I didn't go overboard and mixed in good meals as well but the point is I am full of toxins. For a little while I thought well I will just stop at the end of 3 days and do the other 3 days in a month. But I really feel like all six days is right. I don't work for days 3, 4, or 5 and I think I will feel better by day 6 when I have to go back to work. I have to babysit tonight and then church tomorrow but otherwise I can stay home and not feel good while I clean out my body of the toxins I have been feeding it.
Last night while I was trying to fall asleep, something that was very difficult. I asked God "How can I keep drinking something that makes me feel so awful?" and I can't help but laugh because I put the toxins in my body every time I binged on food I knew I shouldn't be eating.
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This morning I woke determined to finish all six days. On one of the blogs I read the girl was very creative with the smoothies she made. So I took some tips from her and some ideas from the recipes. So this morning I started with the KR red I added 2 cups orange juice, a cup and a half vanilla soy milk, 1/2 cup ice and 1 banana. It was delicious like a creamsicle! That was easy to drink.
I have to babysit tonight so I decided will pre make my drink in a blender and then take it and just drink it after the girl I am watching goes to bed. So I decided to have a late lunch so I won't get hungry too early. For lunch I had KR orange I mixed it with 2 cups pineapple juice, 1 cup orange juice, 1/2 cup of ice and 1 banana. It was really good, not as good as breakfast but I think that is because my vanilla soy milk is very sweetened.
For dinner the plan for the KR blue is to mix 2 cups milk with 1/2 cup blueberries and a banana. Hopefully that make it taste better. I did find during the reviews nobody likes the blue. One person thinks it is because the dehydrated blueberries create chunks plus the blackberries have little tiny seeds that make it a different texture. And thinking about it that makes sense.
I have to go babysit in an hour but really I just want to sit on my couch all night. I am not feeling as bad as yesterday but yesterday I worked for 6 1/2 hours straight, on my feet nearly the entire time. Today I did get some laundry and light cleaning done but nothing in comparison to work yesterday. Anyways, got to pay the bills. Plus it shouldn't be too hard.
Last night before bed I did some reading. Feeling so bad I was very tempted to quit and so tried to find some reviews. I found several others who had done Kaeng Raeng, some had done the 3 day and others the 6 day. None complained of side effects, in fact most specifically said they had no side effects. Though all the reviews I found were people who were already at least vegetarian but several were vegan. I on the other hand have eaten all kinds of junk. In fact the last week of August I ate a few things to kind of say good bye to them. I didn't go overboard and mixed in good meals as well but the point is I am full of toxins. For a little while I thought well I will just stop at the end of 3 days and do the other 3 days in a month. But I really feel like all six days is right. I don't work for days 3, 4, or 5 and I think I will feel better by day 6 when I have to go back to work. I have to babysit tonight and then church tomorrow but otherwise I can stay home and not feel good while I clean out my body of the toxins I have been feeding it.
Last night while I was trying to fall asleep, something that was very difficult. I asked God "How can I keep drinking something that makes me feel so awful?" and I can't help but laugh because I put the toxins in my body every time I binged on food I knew I shouldn't be eating.
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This morning I woke determined to finish all six days. On one of the blogs I read the girl was very creative with the smoothies she made. So I took some tips from her and some ideas from the recipes. So this morning I started with the KR red I added 2 cups orange juice, a cup and a half vanilla soy milk, 1/2 cup ice and 1 banana. It was delicious like a creamsicle! That was easy to drink.
I have to babysit tonight so I decided will pre make my drink in a blender and then take it and just drink it after the girl I am watching goes to bed. So I decided to have a late lunch so I won't get hungry too early. For lunch I had KR orange I mixed it with 2 cups pineapple juice, 1 cup orange juice, 1/2 cup of ice and 1 banana. It was really good, not as good as breakfast but I think that is because my vanilla soy milk is very sweetened.
For dinner the plan for the KR blue is to mix 2 cups milk with 1/2 cup blueberries and a banana. Hopefully that make it taste better. I did find during the reviews nobody likes the blue. One person thinks it is because the dehydrated blueberries create chunks plus the blackberries have little tiny seeds that make it a different texture. And thinking about it that makes sense.
I have to go babysit in an hour but really I just want to sit on my couch all night. I am not feeling as bad as yesterday but yesterday I worked for 6 1/2 hours straight, on my feet nearly the entire time. Today I did get some laundry and light cleaning done but nothing in comparison to work yesterday. Anyways, got to pay the bills. Plus it shouldn't be too hard.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Day 2 - Mid Day Post
I am in the middle of work right now but it is pretty slow (all the kids are watching Toy Story.) Today for lunch, as I mentioned before, I had the Kaeng Raeng blue. Today I used my Blender cup with a mini whisk in it. That worked great for mixing everything together. I think there may have been like two or three little lumps in it. But today I had the hardest time drinking it. I think there are two reasons why I am struggling so much today.
1. I don't think the flavors work well together. The blueberry flavor of the powder and the POM. I think that it just doesn't work for me. This weekend I will try it with the options and see how it goes.
2. I also think that I have reached the hard part. There are cookies in the lounge and Haagen Daiz ice cream in the freezer and a hamburger or a burrito sound really good right now. I am not really craving sugar necessarily just something different.
Honestly it is really hard. I just wanted to stop drinking it, pour it down the drain and it anything else. I wanted to quit and it would be so easy because there are plenty of foods around. It isn't that I am hungry, that is not a problem at all. I catch myself thinking how there is no point to this. I don't really see a difference. But I think that this is part of the deal. My body wants to keep eating meat and keep eating processed foods and I need to tell it no. This six days are going to help me say no to the cravings and make some of the cravings go away.
My slight headache did continue the rest of the morning but I am feeling better now. I do think it has to do with the caffeine withdrawal and I am really really thankful that it is not worse.
I also just noticed that I did not post about what I drank this morning. This morning I had KR orange again but this time I mixed it with the 24 oz water, 8 oz pineapple juice, and 1/2 cup of ice. This was ok but it was very thin, it needed something more. I think if I try it again I will add half a banana instead of the 1/2 cup ice. Or maybe even some orange juice would help. Otherwise this morning's drink went fine, unlike lunch.
1. I don't think the flavors work well together. The blueberry flavor of the powder and the POM. I think that it just doesn't work for me. This weekend I will try it with the options and see how it goes.
2. I also think that I have reached the hard part. There are cookies in the lounge and Haagen Daiz ice cream in the freezer and a hamburger or a burrito sound really good right now. I am not really craving sugar necessarily just something different.
Honestly it is really hard. I just wanted to stop drinking it, pour it down the drain and it anything else. I wanted to quit and it would be so easy because there are plenty of foods around. It isn't that I am hungry, that is not a problem at all. I catch myself thinking how there is no point to this. I don't really see a difference. But I think that this is part of the deal. My body wants to keep eating meat and keep eating processed foods and I need to tell it no. This six days are going to help me say no to the cravings and make some of the cravings go away.
My slight headache did continue the rest of the morning but I am feeling better now. I do think it has to do with the caffeine withdrawal and I am really really thankful that it is not worse.
I also just noticed that I did not post about what I drank this morning. This morning I had KR orange again but this time I mixed it with the 24 oz water, 8 oz pineapple juice, and 1/2 cup of ice. This was ok but it was very thin, it needed something more. I think if I try it again I will add half a banana instead of the 1/2 cup ice. Or maybe even some orange juice would help. Otherwise this morning's drink went fine, unlike lunch.
Day 2 - Morning Post
I feel so tired this morning and totally shouldn't. I slept 12 hours last night! I know that sometimes when you sleep that long you can feel tired when you first wake up so I am hoping it is just that. I woke up 4 times to go pee. Actually I was waking up every two hours after I went to sleep but after the first three times that stopped. And then this morning at 8am I woke up, I probably could have stayed up but I still felt sleepy so I laid down and slept for another hour and a half.
So far my Kaeng Raeng detox is still going well. Last night I had KR orange called Glai Roong or Daybreak it has Mango, Peach, and Pineapple.) I was home again so I was able to use my blender I mixed 24 oz water, 8 oz orange juice, and it called for half a banana but I just stuck a whole one in. It tasted great mostly like banana and orange. I noticed that drinking casually while watching a movie last night it took about an hour to drink it. It was still cold at that point. Oh, I did have ice as part of my 24 oz water to help make it colder. Last night I wasn't hungry at all before bed though as the night got later I started to crave carbs. Nothing specific just any kind of carb. I didn't want to tempt myself and I was feeling tired anyways so I went to bed earlier then I have in a long time at about 9 - 9:30. This morning I woke up with a slight headache. I was thinking at first it was the detox but I realize that yesterday was my first day without any caffeine so if I was going to get a caffeine headache it would be today. Right now it is not bad, something I can easily handle. Hopefully it just won't get much worse. I am going to bring pain reliever to work with me in case I need it.
As a follow up yesterday afternoon I could not finish my KR blue right away. I felt so full I could make myself drink it. It is weird because there have been so many times before in my life where I have felt full and I just pushed past it and kept eating but this time I couldn't. This is a good thing! I need to listen to my body. According to the site you can just keep the remainder in the fridge till you are ready for it so that is what I did. About an hour later I got it out and finished it up no problem. I wasn't starving before my dinner like I was for lunch but I was a little hungry. I didn't want to push dinner back to late so I ate it at 6:30. My current plan is to eat when I wake up, 1:30, and 6:30 and then bed by 10:30.
My brother had read my blog and saw my dilemma about mixing the powder and this morning reminded me how I have a bottle I got for protein shakes that has a little ball that works like a whisk in it. I had totally forgotten about that! It was like a weight off my shoulders because last night I remembered I don't get a break on Friday's so I wasn't sure how I was going to find time to play with my Magic Bullet. So I will take my Blender Bottle with me and that should help so I won't have all of the chunks of powder like yesterday.
Well I have to go get ready for work. I am going over to a friends house tonight so hopefully blending won't be a problem there. I will update again soon.
So far my Kaeng Raeng detox is still going well. Last night I had KR orange called Glai Roong or Daybreak it has Mango, Peach, and Pineapple.) I was home again so I was able to use my blender I mixed 24 oz water, 8 oz orange juice, and it called for half a banana but I just stuck a whole one in. It tasted great mostly like banana and orange. I noticed that drinking casually while watching a movie last night it took about an hour to drink it. It was still cold at that point. Oh, I did have ice as part of my 24 oz water to help make it colder. Last night I wasn't hungry at all before bed though as the night got later I started to crave carbs. Nothing specific just any kind of carb. I didn't want to tempt myself and I was feeling tired anyways so I went to bed earlier then I have in a long time at about 9 - 9:30. This morning I woke up with a slight headache. I was thinking at first it was the detox but I realize that yesterday was my first day without any caffeine so if I was going to get a caffeine headache it would be today. Right now it is not bad, something I can easily handle. Hopefully it just won't get much worse. I am going to bring pain reliever to work with me in case I need it.
As a follow up yesterday afternoon I could not finish my KR blue right away. I felt so full I could make myself drink it. It is weird because there have been so many times before in my life where I have felt full and I just pushed past it and kept eating but this time I couldn't. This is a good thing! I need to listen to my body. According to the site you can just keep the remainder in the fridge till you are ready for it so that is what I did. About an hour later I got it out and finished it up no problem. I wasn't starving before my dinner like I was for lunch but I was a little hungry. I didn't want to push dinner back to late so I ate it at 6:30. My current plan is to eat when I wake up, 1:30, and 6:30 and then bed by 10:30.
My brother had read my blog and saw my dilemma about mixing the powder and this morning reminded me how I have a bottle I got for protein shakes that has a little ball that works like a whisk in it. I had totally forgotten about that! It was like a weight off my shoulders because last night I remembered I don't get a break on Friday's so I wasn't sure how I was going to find time to play with my Magic Bullet. So I will take my Blender Bottle with me and that should help so I won't have all of the chunks of powder like yesterday.
Well I have to go get ready for work. I am going over to a friends house tonight so hopefully blending won't be a problem there. I will update again soon.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Day 1 - Mid Day Post
Today I feel in need of a mid day post. I am sitting at work in the teachers lounge and there is food in here. Little wraps, chips, and lots of cookies. Oh such delicious cookies. They also have a veg tray. It makes me think about how I was and how I wish I would be. See I look at the items and the veg tray is just dismissed. But I wish that it wasn't that way. I wish that I would go to that first. Fresh veggies to eat, great! I have seen many teachers here just take half a cookie, have a cup cake, a sliver of cake. I don't know how they do it, the eating in moderation. It is hard, I know it is hard and I wish I did it better.
This morning I woke up and made my first KR smoothie. I started with what I call red. It is actually called Reunn or Joyful and has a flavoring of strawberry, raspberry, and pineapple. There are many things you can mix it with but today I started with 24 oz water, 8 oz orange juice, and 1 banana, this makes a very full blender. The taste wasn't bad, it was mostly strawberries and banana. Drinking it was a little grainy and I could taste that I was drinking more than just juice. But I drank all of it easy. About a half hour later I thought I was feeling hungry but that didn't make sense since many people including the facts on the site say it is very filling. I know that I have been at over 3000 calories a day so I am sure this will be a drop but I shouldn't be hungry so fast. I decided to stop and listen to my body better. So I checked the time, a had plenty before work, and so I laid down on my bed and prayed and just laid their quietly listening to my body. I realized that although the feeling was coming from my stomach it wasn't a hungry feeling but something different. I am not sure I can explain it. I can say it wasn't like I was starving just that something was going on in my stomach. The feeling continued until, like an idiot, I realized I had not had any water and that is one of the huge things they say. So I started drinking water and got busy at work and the feeling went away.
I drank it around 9am and at 12:30 I started getting actually hungry. I recently read, and had in the past as well. That you should wait as long as you can to eat lunch, you should feel ravenous before you eat so your body has plenty of time to take care of breakfast before getting something new to process. So I accepted the hunger pains, said a little prayer and kept working. Here I am at 1:30 and now I feel like I am starving. I can even hear my stomach yelling at me for food. So I am going to pause for a min and go make my next KR drink.
I am at work so of course I do not have a blender. But I totally wish I did! This time I did the blue mix which Juu Juu or Into the Blue. It has blueberry, blackberry, and banana. I mixed the powder with 24 oz water and 8 oz of POM. I had bought the bottle they sell and added all ingredients to it and shook. This did not work. The powder does not break down in the liquid. It is like when you bake something and add the dry ingredients to wet you often have lumps that you have to get out. Not a problem in a bowl but in a tall water bottle it is a little harder. Ok actually a lot harder. I think I get them all out and then start drinking and find another dry lump in my mouth. The lumps taste just like what I am drinking but it is awkward having dry lumps in my mouth. I need to figure out a better way to do this. Right now I am thinking that I can bring my magic bullet, it is pretty small making it portable. I won't be able to mix all of it but at least I can blend the powder with some water and get it mixed up better. The cups only hold about 12 oz but that should be enough. Besides the lumps this doesn't taste too bad. It is mostly a blueberry and POM flavor. This is much more grainy then the one this morning. It is harder to drink but I think that is mostly mental because on the top on the side there are several lumps as well as being scared of drinking lumps. I do try to remember to swirl it around before I drink to keep it fully mixed. I have drunk about 2/3 of it over the last half hour and I am again feeling it in my stomach. This time it is the different feeling from before combined with a full feeling. I have another half hour before I go back to work so I should be able to finish it before.
As I sit here looking at the drink I can't help and think about all of the powder stuck on the sides. It was some true this morning but even more now. I suspect they must have planned for that right? Knew that not every little bit would be ingested. I suppose if I really wanted to I could after I was done just add water, shake it up and then drink it.
I do want to do some cardio tonight. The web site encourages exercise and so I want to include that as well over the next few days. Of course afterwards as well. With many fasts you don't exercise though of course this is not a fast it is just a detox program. I think that is it for now. Will update again soon.
A New Day
As I sit here in my living room there is a stack of 8+ books in front of me. They are books full of recipes and information about eating heathy, eating clean. Books full of juicing, smoothies and salads. Others that hold info on why and what to and not to eat. I feel like I am in the middle of all of them. Some have post its sticking out the side to recipes I want to try or have tried. Pages with lists of brands that vegan.
After church I went to the store. I bought banana's, blueberries, strawberries, POM, orange juice, pineapple juice, v8, and fruitables drinks. For the next six days I am drinking everything that goes in my mouth. This is going to be a challenge! I had mentioned before how I purchased a product called Kaeng Raeng. It provides you with all of the nutrients you need in three packets you drink through out the day. The reviews say you get better results if you just mix with water but I am a newbie and know that I will need a little extra to get me through. So I am following the recipes they provided, adding juices and fruits to better the taste and calories. As before all adventures I go on (weight loss and traveling ones alike) I am always excited the night before. My intellectual side reminds me that this is going to be hard. It reminds me how I have seen several blogs where they posted their first day and then never mention it again. But then most of me is just excited. What if this works? What if it helps me reset my system? What if it helps me get past my insistent need to eat ice cream all day? What if I can break free from the addition to junk food and start eating more natural foods, the foods God intended us to eat?
Part of me is scared to say I am going to be eating vegan. What will people say? But those I have mentioned it to don't care. In fact they encourage me. The truth is, as most know, I don't really eat fruits and veggies. I eat processed foods. I eat foods that are way too many calories. I binge eat on awful things. And even as a vegan I can still do that. There is still vegan ice cream, cookies, chips, baked goods. But of course I am not really looking at those. I will never be a peta member but looking at vegan recipes on their web site, why not? I don't do this just because animals are being harmed. I do it because my body doesn't like dairy, because I am tired of get sick, because I don't believe the hormones and antibiotics in our current meat is good for my body. Because until I cut out all processed foods I won't be able to free myself from them. I do feel addicted to them. And I know I have tried so many things to loose weight and so this is another in a long line. But (after the first six days) I am not depriving myself of nutrition or even calories. It is the quality of the food that matters the most. I also know that if at any point I do decide to stop with the Kaeng Raeng I know that I will be transitioning straight into vegan food. I had seen one woman who did that, she made it two days and then just used the rest of the packets as her breakfast and ate sensible the rest of the day. So that is an option I am leaving open. Honestly though, I think this is a great time to do this. It is over labor day weekend so I have three days off. Everyone says you usually feel the worst on day 2 or 3. So I have to work day 2 but I am off days 3, 4, and 5. I am also going to use this time to spend more time in prayer. Just like any other fast when it gets hard I am going to lean on God to help me through it.
I have detoxed off from caffeine. In fact the last two days I have only had a 7.5 oz can. This evening I have had a slight headache and I almost wonder if it is due to the caffeine. I drank water all day until dinner when I had the can of soda and it has been since then I haven't felt well. But I don't think tomorrow is going to be a problem with no caffeine. I think I detoxed pretty well down off from it. I am glad I did not choose to go cold turkey from the 2 liters a day I was at.
But now it is late, so late it has turned into tomorrow. So for now I head to bed to get some sleep before my new adventure starts.
*I weighed myself tonight on the Wii Fit. I currently weigh 279.5. I do not plan to weigh myself until the end of day six.
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