Ok so yesterday I realized I was in a tail spin. I ate breakfast at denny's, had carmel frappachino for lunch, mcdonalds for dinner, and then stopped at a gas station and got ice cream for desert. I was anxious all day from all this boot camp, hcg, fasting stress. Last night I was up till midnight watching a movie and then couldn't sleep because I was so stressed out. So last night I decided I am not doing boot camp anymore. I am not getting any benefits from it, instead I am actually gaining weight and spinning into a cycle of depression so no more. I let the boot camp girl know this morning I won't be back. I had registered for the second boot camp but I am going to see if I can unregister and maybe gift it to someone. If not then it was only $30 and my sanity is worth more than that.
This weekend I am spending some one-on-one time with nephews. One loves to cook and the other loves to shop. So food will be involved with both. I do have a four day weekend next weekend so the current plan is to fast for four days next weekend. I plan to do a "regular fast" no food but lots of water. I am hoping that during this time I will find some clarity about the HCG thing because I am to back and forth, split in the middle right now about it.
This morning when I woke up I felt like a weight was off my shoulders. I am still not sure about these shoes because they kind of remind me all day I am trying to loose weight but I am used to them now so I am going to see if I can handle them. Well off to work now.