About Me

Hi, my name is Angela and welcome to my blog. This is a place where I write about my life in an honest and open way.

I am 36 years old, single, and a Christian. God gave me a heart to work with children and so I spend my day teaching kindergarten. It is my fourth year teaching and although it is hard I love it. I currently go to a college for my BA in Elementary Education which keeps me busy. Between work and school there is not much time left but I enjoy serving and helping others, watching netflix, or reading a good book.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Day Unexpected

I woke up this morning with a migraine. I didn't want to go to work but it is a hectic weeks so I really didn't want to call out. I took some advil and went back to bed but forgot to set a new alarm so i woke up late. Then as I was driving to work I was distracted by a truck covered in post it notes so instead of ten minutes late I was fifteen minutes late. I explained my migraine headache and everyone understood but I still hate being late.

I was still feeling awful by the time my break came around. I tried to think of something and what should I eat and then I just didn't care. I wanted to feel better so I got a burger and fries at Islands. I didn't want a fake burger from some drive thru. Instead this is all meat and fresh veg. It was great.

After work, feeling like my day wasn't going as planned anyways, I went to Holy Yoga with my sister-in-law. She goes every monday night and always asks and I finally said yes. It was interesting. It is really based on relaxation and is like a foreign concept to me. We would be doing positions and many were very difficult to do but I kept wanting to be burning more calories. Working harder so that I would have more results. At the end we laid on our backs just relaxing but my brain was still all over the place. I was literally thinking, 'Ok, if it's over then lets go.' Like why am I wasting my time lying here. I couple times we did child pose and we would just lay there for like five minutes and both times my brain was all over. I kept looking around, 'are people really just laying here?'

I have a lot of things on my mind. My final project, summer classes and financial aid for them, plus continued possibilities of my getting a promotion at work. Then add eating healthy and exercise and it is a lot to deal with. I still don't know how some women do all this with kids of their own on top of it all. If that is you then I totally look up to you! Good job. So relaxing for an hour and a half is hard to do. My first reaction is that, 'no I don't want to go back.' A lot of the poses are really hard for me to do and I was constantly doing modifications. But now that it has been a little while I realize that I probably need this time to just shut my brain off. Maybe spend the time focusing on God. As a side note I believe there are Holy Yoga classes all across the country. You can look and see if there is one near you at www.HolyYoga.net.

For the last couple hours I have been fighting the craving for ice cream. I want some so bad. In fact I got out of my pajamas and into real clothes wanting to go to Denny's or even just get a carton at local Fry's or Walgreens. But here I am about to go to sleep and I did not go out. I am pretty proud of myself. It wasn't that I was hungry in fact my dinner left me satisfied. It is the feeling of the food in my mouth. The pleasure that I associate with eating ice cream. Your food might be different then mine. I have always gone to ice cream occasionally donuts. It is a mental association with the food. 'If I eat ice cream I will be happy. For those moments as I eat this food I don't think about other things, it is kind of my high. I need to replace it with things like relaxing in yoga. What is your go to food?

1 comment:

  1. french fries! =) good for you for not giving into the craving, recognizing it was mental, not physical! those are the minor changes that will make a huge difference! I always ask myself "is it worth it?" is the instant gratification of a large fry worth all the hard work I put in at the gym this morning? most of the time, the answer is no. Right now I am trying to lose weight and when I reach my goals, I will then learn moderation, but until then, i have to keep asking if it's worth it.