I was tempted. Rather, I am tempted to not post this. A month ago I wouldn't have cared. I would been honest and posted it without thinking. But now that I have followers and people that comment on my blog I worry. So I am going to take a deep breath and post the truth because that is all that I have to give you.
The last two days I have eaten horrible. I do not even know how many calories I have had in the last 48 hours. Last night I got dressed in my workout clothes but never made it on my Gazelle. Sometimes I feel guilty about it and wish I did better and other times I don't. I know that I have been eating bad for more then a decade and it will take time to learn... I don't know. I know what I should eat and how much I should eat. I guess it is just... I don't know why I do this. I need to figure it out. Why I choose food I know I shouldn't eat. Why I overeat.
I have never tried it before but I think it is time to keep a food journal. Listing what, when, and why. I think I will just put it in a note taker so I can see it all listed. I just went and found an app called Push+Pop where I can just list the information and then it is ready for the next note. It puts everything on one list so I will not be able to use this app for anything else but that is ok. I will let you know how it goes.
That is about it for now. Till tomorrow.